10 things I hate about YOU (hinanaing ng desperada)

1. I hate how you make me smile even though you're not doing anything special for me.
2. I hate how you make me think of you and how you make me miss you so much.
3. I hate how you make me feel that you like me, as if it is really true.
4. I hate you when you call me all night and make me laugh every time you call me 'panget'.
5. I hate your eyes especially when i remember them looking at me and teasing me.
6. I hate you when you make me fell in love with you.
7. I hate you when you said i love you (that i don't know what it means,is it because you're happy you resolved your formulas).
8. I hate you when you said to me to assume ( that I don't know what to assume).
9. I hate you when you disappear all of a sudden.
10. I hate you when you made me cry.

From the start, I already told myself that I will not hope and expect anything from you. It is because I am aware that you don't like to be commited to girls. I said then that I will just enjoy your company. Indeed, I enjoyed every memories that we have, I enjoy everything up to the extent that I was not able to keep myself from falling for you. And here I am me now, missing you every night when you suddenly disappear and made me feel that you want to stop now. I know we never became "lovers" but since you said to me to assume, I always almost think that we were like one. Now I feel that I hate you because I love you.

I want to tell you all of these things.

Ano ka sira? Pagkatapos ng isang masayang araw na kasama kita bigla mo na lang ipaparamdam na wala alng ako sayo at iiwasan mo ko?Ano ko laruan?Nagenjoy ka na makausap at makasama  ako pero pag ayaw mo na kasi busy ka, kasi madaming magandang babae dyan, kasi I can't meet the qualities of your dream girl, you will just leave and avoid me and dump me? How I wish I saw that from the start. Yes, I know that you never meant that we are together before, but at least you should not have treat me that way. Now I am stranded again. Swerte ko nga naman sa pag-ibig. Siguro nga kasalanan ko lahat kasi I'm so ASSUMING! Sorry ha, I wish I never became one.


Now I am telling myself this:


Pangako mo Carissa, hindi ka na maaapektuhan simula ngayon! Hindi mo Kailangang maghabol! Kung ayaw nya sayo, who cares? You already loved him as much as you can. You already offered him your love and care. If he is acting that way, that only means that YOU'RE NOTHING TO HIM! AND WHO CARES IF THAT"S THE CASE? LET HIM FEEL AND REALIZE ONE DAY THAT HE LOSS EVERYTHING WHEN HE DUMPED YOU, WHEN HE HURT YOU, WHEN HE AVOIDED YOU!

Girl, guys are not everything in the world. The hell! YOU CAN SLAP IN HIS FACE EVERYTHING THAT HE BOASTS ABOUT! He is NOT even handsome or kind or worth it for you to feel that way. 
BOYS ARE NOTHING!!!

One day when you face him you will just laugh at yourself when you realize that you are so stupid during the days that you are insane about him.